If he forgets my birthday, Ima be hella pissed.

raul&julieta
I guess things aren't going as well. I mean.. raul obviously found someone else. & didn't tell me. I had to friggen ask myself, which pisses me off. I can't believe i still have this grudge in me. this wrath. I am mad at him for everything he has ever did/tell me. I was waiting for him. I thought he was waiting too. I really had my hopes up for my raulito<3

But what can I do? He seems extremely happy with her. He and her seem too perfect. Like, they seem like the most perfect couple. I'm still going to be waiting. I just KNOW raul is mine. <33 .. </33 But I am afraid that they do seem like they are going to last forever. OMFG. I dont even know anymore! RAULMYLOVE.

Raul was IS my everything. I cannot possibly see myself without him.
Julieta is really pretty too.. & paloma thinks I'm better. =P
ajajaja i know i know. He just hasn't realized that yet.

So here I am, on msn, waiting for him to IM me. But you know what? I don't think he will. I don't think he ever will. I hate what he has done to me. He has given me this false hope. A hope that died 2 months ago. He's the reason for what I am now. He has changed me into something I cannot imagine. & I still can't believe that he lied to me. HEISMYEVERYTHING. Is it healthy for still having this love for someone who loves someone else?
I mean, honestly. He would probably be mad if i told him my real feelings towards him. Would you think he would change his mind? What if they end up marrying. OHMYGOSH. I already considered raul as my fiance <3

I know this sounds weird, really. It is what i feel. & i had to let it out on xanga.
I mean, come on.
raul&alma
it fits. We were meant to be together.
I still love him, but i hate him at the same time!
Raul doesn't know my xanga. *thank God
RAUL<3;amorcito, te amo.

Lets just say you met this guy..
And you two started talking and you're like, hey he's nice, we could be friends, but then you talk and talk and then you realize, i think i may like him more than a friend. You guys start talking forever and ever just about stuff. nothing important. And you guys talk whenever ya'll can. and youre like awww, i like him, i hope he does too, no wait, he does! and so two years pass and you guys are STILL tlaking cause you two are just oh so close. Then suddenly out of the bloom, he just one day stops. And youre like, oh well, hes probably busy, and then the next day comes and he stops too. and youre liek okay wait a minute...somethigns wrong. and then weeks pass by and he doesnt say anything! and you're like aww man, what happened? and so one day you finally talk but its different, its not quite the same. and so you're confused. you dont know what to do. so ya;ll just ignore eachother. its very sad, but it happens. then one day, you look at his profile and see this girl. girl. another girl. and you think, well shes probably just a friend. hope so. but then you see her comment and shes not talking like shes just a friend. you get very jealous and furious because HE didnt tell you ANYTHING about this GIRL. you thought you two were close, yet he doesnt say a word. Then finally you realize, they are going out. and so you say to yourself, well, what about me? like, i thought we had something. but no, yall never had anything. it was just you. you in your mind always thought he was the one. figures. you two were never gonna go that far, come on now, hes incredibly handsome. of course hes gonna want her, but shes not even that pretty. and so now you know its official, cause you constantly check his profile cause youre a stalker. and youre still mad cause he hasnt TOLD you yet. and now, you see a pic of them two on his msn display pic and you say wow hes handsome, why arent we talking anymore ... i thought we had something special. i love him.

but its too friggen bad.
Hes hella ignoring you.
Like never before.
Its annoying.
What a jerk.
And i want him out of my life.
but thats impossible because I love him.

</3 R35A23U3L

tis the end of the year.
& we're almost seniors !
holy mother friggen crap.
That was hella fast.
I mean, i dont even feel like a senior.
seriously.

I actually liked this year.
I mean, I like myself more. heh.
& great things happened !~
yeah yeah yeah.

Hm, I'm hella looking forward to next year.
Cause I know it's gonna be hella fun.

it's not aim, its A-I-M.
LOL, castro valley people . .

Overall, my classes have been okay.
I just don't like chemistry or english.
I'm so glad I'm done with science !
and math tambien ~! :D

guessitwasntmeanttobe.
imadefitnitlymisshim.
hesgotsomeoneelse.
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Holas.
Well, junior year is coming to an end; it went by so fast.
Escribire en espanol. jajaja.
Bueno, este ano me a gustado muchisimo.
Me encanta mi clase de arte. Y horita estoy pensando en agarar mi "major" en arte.
perooo, no se en que colegio quiero ir.
Mis opciones horita son : SFSU, Academy of Art Univ, East Bay.
Y para ir a SFSU, necesito a tomar Alg 2 otra vez porq agare un D.
stupidmrlovato.
Osea, tengo q ir a chabot para hacer Alg 2. -_-

Ojala voy a japon! de verdaddd!
Por q las clases de arte van a ir. y tal vez voy yo! =)
Bueno, ojala. Y estoy orando y ayunando para q puedo ir.
Y tambien para los jovenes q van a ir al retiro. claro.
Dios hace muchas cosas. Creo q el puede hacer todo posible.